A Day in my Life

Update

2010-11-04T17:33:00.000-07:00

So, I know I haven't written in a while.....so we almost had 2 good weeks. We had 1 minor set back last week, but he made the right choices, so i was very proud of him. Had a meeting today, we meet 1x a month with the dr. We were commenting that he has been doing pretty good, making better choices. I mentioned that I didn't want to say anything because that usually jinxs it and BAM!!!!! he has a horrible day. Now he is out for 2 days.....now he has to shovel goat poo!! I know that may not be the best punishment for him, but we feel that right now it works for us. A few baby steps forward and a couple steps back. Part of the process. Please keep the positive prayers coming our way!!

another day

2010-10-19T04:56:00.000-07:00

The last few days have been pretty good. I hate to say anything, because that is usually a sure fire jinx. I have been trying different tactics, talking about different ways to handle stressors, different ideas. We will see if they work. Thank you to all my supportive friends. I know that there are families that are worse off than ours, but I don't want to sound mean, but I have to worry about my family!!

another day

2010-10-15T16:04:00.000-07:00

Well, today I broke down, I think it has been a long time coming. I had to leave morning program because I couldn't keep myself together, which isn't fair for the girls. I ended up talking with a mom that has gone through a similar situation. Some of what she said sounds familiar, but also, some of what she said gave me hope!! I am trying to be strong and compassionate, but also, I am forced to be the heavy. All those roles mixed together, can be very over whelming. Tomorrow is a new day, and I am looking for the strength to get through the day.

Stressed

2010-10-14T17:22:00.001-07:00

For those of you who know me, I am an extremely emotional person. Having said that, I have a child that has recently been diagnosed with bi-polar mood disorder and ADHD-impulsivity. This makes life very stressful in our household. There are times, as bad as this sounds, that I wished my child had cancer or another disease. I could accept that and deal with the treatment and have the hope that my child will be "cured." If you have never experienced a child with a mental issue, consider yourself lucky. Our life is a constant rollercoaster...you never know what or when something will happen. I am hoping that blogging will help me through this process. Please do not judge me based on what I have written, until you have walked a week in my shoes, you wouldn't understand!